Monday 6th Sept

Weight - 10 st 6.5 lbs (146.5 lbs)
same as last week
Lbs lost so far with SW - 7

Enjoyed todays Slimming World class - we had a 'taster' day where everyone took in some savour foods, very yummy! Ate very well today (it is now 11.40pm and am about to go to bed).
Work as per usual tomorrow. After SW today didn't do a great deal, though went round a few charity shops in Heswall, didn't get anything though.
Have made a chicken pasta dish for lunch tomorrow (see, all prepared for once) and Neil is cooking a chicken stew for tea, ok I know chicken twice, but hey, whatever, 2 totally different recipes and does it matter!
Did not take Buster out this evening as it was pouring down with rain and way too cold, poor Buster.

 Tuesday 7th September

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I never thought having a puppy would be this flipping stressful. Now Buster is about 7 months old, well, he's a bit of a nightmare sometimes. Now he can reach up to most surfaces and 'pinches' things, anything he can get his mouth on. He's ripped and destroyed books, shoes, clothes and allsorts and it's driving me nuts.

We have to make sure things are well away from him. The back garden is a mess (holes, toys, slippers, shoes, things's he's pinched and run out with. I haven't got the energy! Honestly.

I have been very very good on my food today but can feel some stress eating coming on......must try and avoid this later.

 Wed 8th Sept

Not the most productive of days, work, sleep and evening meal! Had a really nice mixed salad for tea but perhaps should have avoided the french bread, though did not go mad, only had a bit. Tomorrow is going to be a better day food wise ok! Arghg, though I do have a meal out tomorrow night at a pub/restuarant in Heswall, it's a tapas meal out (never had this befire). ie greek food. Have seen the menu already and will aim to make as healthy a choice as I can.
R has gone back to school and is in a new class and is very happy (so far).

Feel I ought to have done some exercise today (0ther than work). Meant to take Buster out for a long walk in the evening but did not get round to it cos we went to Neils dads house and then shopping. Got a nice amount of stuff to take a yummy salad in for lunch tomorrow.

 Friday 10th September

Am knackered tonight, well, it is half past 11 in the evening! Long day in work really. Had a buffet in work (someone was leaving). Also last night went for a tapas meal (Greek) and really enjoyed that. I would fall through the floor if I actually managed to lose weight this week. Am not quite sure I want to go and get weighed on Monday (am a chicken) and have not decided whether I can face the scales.
Took Buster for a walk in the evening, also went to Neils dads who is not doing so good at the moment and then we did some shopping for Neils dad and went back there.
Been buying chocolate biscuits in for R's school lunch boxes, unfortunately is too great a temptation. Must try and get healthier lunch box stuff for next week. No point in having temptation in the house if can avoid it as my willpower is not that good, especially when I am feeling stressed/bored/upset or fed up.

Planning on a nice long walk for Buster tomorrow. Neil has to take his dad to the Dr's in the morning. He's offered to sleep in his dads for a week or three (whilst his dad changes his tablets) as he is not doing so good and needs all the help and support he can get. We need to be there for him. I hate to see him so so upset and distressed.

Well, time to go to sleep, might try and read a few chapters of my book but will probably fall asleep after 2 pages!

Sat 11th September

Last weekend I went to a car boot sale with mum n dad and my sister/her boyfriend and kids etc. Got 2 things
Got these 2 pretty glasses for £2
Got this statue for £1 - cute (though not to beryones taste as my sister htought it was horrible - she likes modern stuff)
SOme ceramic boots for the garden that mum got me
A pic of J and R when they did their hair
My sister Ches and her boyfriend in a 3 man tent they got at the car boot sale for £10 which they were so chuffed with. I have never been camping, not my cup of tea!
Well this was Buster last night! We were just about to go to bed and we went in the kitchen and saw this! Buster had managed to get a newspaper out of the recycle bin and this is what he did with it - obviously he decided he needed some sort of blankey to cover him over night and there was barely any on the floor, it was all in his bed!!!!!!! Sleeping rough eh!

No plans today other than cleaning. It's 11.45am and I have cleaned the kitchen, houvered downstairs, cleaned the hall bannisters and all the woodwork in the front room (windowsills etc).

 Sunday 12th September

Another day of cleaning!

Why do I leave all the cleaning to the point where it is a MASSIVE job? Instead I should be doing lots, smaller jobs and often. But I leave it to the point where the whole house needs blitzing and then am MEGA knackered!

Yesterday I totally cleaned and re-arranged R's room and even painted the ceiling in her room (it was pale blue and I now painted it white).. Today is the front bedroom (our room) - am foing to go through all my clothes that DON'T fit and either put them in a box in the attic or giv them to a charity shop. I was going to sell them on EBAY but can't be bothered, is it worth it? I guess I'd sell stuff that was new or nearly new and had a good label, but I have barely anything like that so............

Well, had a slice of toast for breakfast (1 slice) and am aiming to eat as healthy as can for the rest of the day!!!!! YEAH!!!!

Reasons I eat stuff I shouldn't (cos won't lose weight) or didn't mean to at the time.......

1. Cos I want it and no one's going to stop me (ie chocolate, an extra sandwich or 3, crisps, takeaways etc)

2. Cos I am stressed (stress makes me find myself in the kitchen having eaten whatever I can get my hands on) and it makes me send Neil to the shop for goodies)

3. Seeing people eat nice stuff on the telly makes me want to go and make a BIG sandwich even when have already eaten)

4. Because it's there in the cupboard/fridge. Any temptation (ie chocolate, biscuits, crusty french bread, crisps), if it's there I get drawn to it.

5. Again, because I want it, need it, I DESERVE it, I need a treat, it's comforting, it makes me feel better, it tastes LOVELY, I am craving it, it relaxes me and so on and so on (this one applies mainly to chocolate tpye things).

In all honesty I rarely eat when I am just plain hungry.

Wanna see a really 1980's photo!!!!! Here I am in about 1984 (haha I was 21) when we all went to Malta (me, mum, dad, my sister Ches and my sister Teresa, my other sister Vanessa did not go she stayed at home with her boyfriend at the time). My hair was PERMED and short - ewwwwwwwww.......yak hairstyle!!!! At the time I was working in a nursing home, mum n dad paid for the holiday and I managed to save up my spending money. We had a great 2 weeks there in Kappara Malta.
Here I am (far left! and far right is Cheryl one of my younger sisters, in the middle is Callum, a lad Ches met and went out with for the duration of the holiday!!!!) Here we were at the apartments outdoor disco, I had my swimming costume on under the shorts and top cos we all went for a midnight swim afterwards in the fab pool!
Where we stayed in Malta, on the LEFT hand side was the bar, shop and cafe. We all used to sit round the pool in the VERY hot sun (it was 120 degrees)