Sunday 16th May

Why did I have some wine last night? Silly me. We watched The Devil Wears Prada and the character on it was sipping wine and I thought Oh I'd love a glass of wine! OOOHHHHHHH the calories

Neil did the garden today and I raked up the grass cuttings.
Me busy at the bottom of the garden!
Now tomorrow I need to cut the hedges as they are well overgrown
Bad hair day!!!!
Can you see Neil mowing the grass!
See how overgrown the hedges are. I hate cutting hedges, maybe if I moan enough Neil will do it!!!!!

It was lovely and sunny out today. I am getting weighed in the morning, no idea how I will have done, but am not expecting a big loss. This week I am going to try harder to be good (really I am). Neil lost 2 lbs this week. He did have a donut after cuttung the grass!!!!! Oh I love the smell of donuts but did not even have a small nibble. Now if only I had not had that wine last night - ah well too late now. Will have better willpower next week.

 Monday 17th May 2010

I managed somehow to lose a lb this week which is good. I feel very motivated after my Slimming World meeting this morning. I am determined to get losing weight, Elaine who is the class leader is so so nice and I would love for her to feel pleased and proud of me. And yes, I am going to lose weight for me, it is what I want so much.
I had a healthy lunch of syn free sausages and roasted veggies and am making a yummy beef stew for us all tonight. I must make sure I eat plenty of fruit and veg this coming week as I did not have much fruit at all last week.

It is lovely and sunny out though the wind is a bit cold. Neil has taken his dad to the hospital this afternoon, Bill (Neil's dad) came round for lunch today and he is here for tea on Wed evening. Also I am taking up some beef stew to him later. He needs such a lot of help and support and company, as much as we can help we are. He does not have a large family and really only Neil goes round there with any regularity (to the house) .Neils other brother visits his mum in hospital each day too. His other son lives in Australia and of course cannot visit. I wish there was more we could do. J visits when he can so between us, well, hopefully we can help Neil's dad improve and cope with all the stresses he is facing at this time. Neil's mum is doing well medically and looks better than she has done for ages (though still looks a little frail). She seems happy, though more to do with the dementia I think.

I've been thinking I would love a garden swing. My mum has got one as has all my sisters, they are SO relaxing to sit in. Probably won't get one for this summer (lack of £££££). Ah well.

Neil and I went for a lovely long walk about 6.30pm. We walked from Gayton to Parkgate. We didn't intend to have such a long walk , it just ended up that way. Here are some pics we took

Me walking along towards Parkgate, it was such a nice walk
Neil on the way to Parkgate
Having a rest on the way!
I took this pic of a dandelion clock!
R and me earlier tonight
My yellow kitchen always cheers me up.
A plant that someone gave me from work ages ago it's on the kitchen windowsill
All in all we walked for about an hour.

 Tuesday 18th May 2010

It's a lovely sunny day out there (7am at the moment) and it's such a pity that I am in work all day - ah well.
Had a very healthy breakfast of banana and yogurt and am having my fruity coleslaw sandwich on wholemeal bread with an apple for lunch. I might try and get a short walk in at lunch time round the hospital grounds.
Hey I might even walk to work tomorrow?!!
Am feeling bright and ready and ready for the day. I enjoyed our walk so much last night we are going to do it again tonight (ok Neil!)_. Even if at the end of the day at work I am knackered, well, we will go for a walk and this time we may even get R and J to come along? J is doing lots of revision for his A levels coming up, well, he says he is anyway.

Why are some girls SO bitchy and nasty? I mean, there's this one girl in R's class who is a total nasty bitch and she keeps making very very nasty comments to R and also saying things like "you girls are all my friends except R" when they are all sat round the table working in a lesson. At what point do we say "ENOUGH".

Well, we have kept a record of all she has been saying and tomorrow we are informing the school. Makes me wanna go and scratch the little cows eyes out (and I am not a horrid person, really I'm not). Is also very hard not to confront her mother (who just happens to work.......well, anyway. No confrontations. Makes me SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bloody mad.

Well apart from eating a small stick of rock (that a friend got me in work from Blackpool) I have been v good on diet plan and have even come to bed tonight having not succumbed to toast!!!!!!!!!! If I

1. Get up in time
2. Have the energy
3. If it's sunny

then I will attempt to walk to work tomorrow - will do me good, I can plug myself into my ipod and listen to McFly/Avril Lavigne/Paramore all the way to work.

Time for bed.

 Thur 20th May

We are off to J's 18th birthday party tonight (J is already there). Gosh it is so hot out and I have been stuck in work all day (boo hoo). It's going to be nice at the weekend apparently, so hopefully we can get some walks done. We plan on taking R (and J if he wants to come along) to Heswall Dungeons (or whats left of them).

 Friday 21st May 2010

Fancy being stuck in work all day when we had all that beautiful sunshine! Yep, that was me today.
Been ol on diet. Got weighed in work this morning but for the 3rd week running had stayed the same - damn. Am feeling unfit, fat and horrid. Haha whats new! My joints have started hurting again, think it's beacuse mt Methotrexate has gone from 25mg a week to 10mg a week. They reduced it to 10mg about 2 weeks ago. Might have to go and get my usual monthly blood tests and see if I can talk to rheumatology again, see what they say. Am taking painkillers each day and don't really want to do this. I would much rather the rheumatoid arthritis was controlled with the Methotrexate with no flare-ups.
Occupational therapy are getting back to me to get a new splint done for my left hand (as that has been really hurting). My old splint has split. It's kinda like a half plaster cast but lighter of course and is covers my whole thumb and hand. Haven't had to wear this in long time, managed to dig it out of an old box (that's how long it is) and of course it's split and I can't wear it.
I am looking forward to going out for a few walks this weekend, though Neil is already moaning that he just wants to stay in. Ah well.
R is out tonight for tea at a friends house which is great. I can't believe that at the end of July she will have finished her first year at high school.

J's 18th party was nice last night. Her parents did a huge buffett and all the family and friends were there. She looked gorgeous in a beautiful dress much like this one, she looked fantastic

Her parents were really nice as were all the family. R had a great time as she knew a few girls there. J (my J) looked a bit nervous but had a good time and looked nice in his white short (pity about the frayed black jeans!)!!!!!
On the way to work this morning J played me a song that he had played acoustic guitar too and J (his girlfriend) had sung to. OMG, I was crying in the car, it was so beautiful. He plaed so great and she has an amazing singing voice.

 Sat 22nd May 2010

Went round West Kirby in the morning with Neil and we were meant to all go for a long walk sometime today but Neil and I got into a big argument (stupid men) and so I ended up snoozing on the couch and we did not go for the walk despite the fact that it was sooooooooooooooooo nice out. What a waste of a day.
J is taking his grandad to the hospital at the moment, Neil did not feel so good so J said he would go which is nice.
Have eaten crappily today.
Breakfast - 2 toast
Lunch - Nothing
Tea - 2 small bowls allbran with skim milk
Eve - a few (ok 3) skinny cow ice creams at 85 cals each)

Not a veg or a piece of fruit in sight.

Maybe we'll have a nicer day tomorrow?

 Sunday 23rd May 2010
Well, we never got to go for our walk, but we did get to blitzing the bedrooms and having a mega clean up. AND got about 7 huge bin bags for the tip (gotta take them tomorrow). You have to be ruthless and in the end (since the house is NOT a tardis) you have to chuck stuff out.
Still haven't finished the big clean up, but we made a good start.
J has gone shopping for us and is then bringing J round for tea. Neil is off to see his mum at the hosp later with his dad.

Got to go and get weighed tomorrw. Can't say I have been 100% on the plan but have not been that bad either. I did do an hours dancing Wed night. I have aimed to stick to the plan on the whole though I do find it hard when am tired after work and cannot think what to make for tea etc. We have not had any takeaways, I have not had ONE drop of alcohol and I have even (ok apart from one biscuit when I was hypo) managed to avoid chocolate and any binges. Should be good for a pound loss you would think wouldn't you???????

Last night I was peckish and had a cottage cheese and beetroot salad which is good.I did have some party type food on THur night but didn't go mad.
We shall see on the scales tomorrow. If I could lose a pound a week that would be great.