J and J (J playing and J singing, recorded in J's bedroom, J using his acoustic guitar). I think J has a gorgeous voice, I hope that she sings on J and Neil's cd that they are doing in the studio. Her and J make a fab team and they sound so great together. You can also just about hear J (my J) singing in the chorus with J). I just think it's beautiful and it makes me want to cry all the time, I love it. Let me know if you were able to listen to it and what you think (please!) Ta.
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 Monday 24th May 2010

Weight - 10 st 9 lbs (149 lbs)
Loss - 1 lb
Lbs lost so far at SW - 3.5 lbs
Lbs to lose still - about 30

7.40am and I am going to get weighed about 9am. Not a lot planned for today cept finishing off the tidying upstairs. Weather is cooler and no sun out as yet. Kids are off to school/college shortly.

I have made a lovely chicken and sweetcorn soup for tea (Mmmmmm.....). Am pleased to say that I lost a lb this week, am glad, if I keep this up, then I WILL GET THERE.
J said his Maths exam was ok today, yippeeeeeee. I met R from school and walked home with her which was lovely in the sunshine, she chatted all the way home.

 Tuesday 25th May 2010

Warm day. Was working all day though and guess what! I've got tomorrow off (yippeeee). Pity I got a sore throat and the sniffles.
Done ok on diet plan, though in the evening did have some chocolate pud with low far custard, small portion. Had some home made meatballs for tea.

Was aiming to do time on the treadmill, did manage 10 minuyes that is all cos feeling grotty and that plus R was watching Vampire Diaries.

 Wed 26th May

Not done a lot today really. Tired, sore throat and cough. Not sure if I have the energy to go dancing tonight, might just do the one hour not 2. Made homemade pizza (SW recipe) and everyone (well cept Neil cos he does not like cheese) enjoyed it.

Watched a programme last night with someone called Dawn Porter, called Dawn Porter Gets Naked. It was really interesting.

Dawn Porter bares all in order to reveal how our idea of perfection has been perverted to fit the demands of the beauty industry. In a bid to get to grips with her naked self, Dawn is propelled into all manner of uncompromising situations - from hanging out with naturists to learning a valuable lesson in morality from a stripper. Spurred on to try and change attitudes and expectations of the female form, Dawn sets about organising what she hopes will become the ultimate female Flashmob.

It was so interesting and made you think, yep, I should like myself more instead of spending all these years hating how I look. Ok, I don't look brill naked (haha) but I should definately stop wearing big baggy clothing, black clothing that hides all etc. I would not feel happy flaunting all my wobbly bits but should definately wear stuff that is nice, pretty and is what I WANT to wear and that I will feel good in instead of constantly thinking "OMG I will look FAT in that"

Just about to have a nice cup of tea, it's almost 11pm. I did do an hours dancing tonight but decided not to stay the two hours cos my chest was hurting as was my throat.
I have had a few too many snacky things today, most of them this evening before I went dancing cos I was hypo. What have I eaten today?
Breakfast - None
Lunch - 1 and a half wholemeal rolls with phil cream cheese light and onion and tomato plus a slim fast bar.
Anoon - 1/4 slice homemade pizzza (SW recipe)
Tea - 1 slice wholemeal bread spread with light cheese and a yogurt
Eve - 2 pacs slim fast pretzel snacks and 4 light rich tea biscuits.

Balanced meals? Nah! Will do better tomorrow. Sometimes I just can't be faffed thinking of what to eat.

Well, time for bed as am v tired. I am reading Sweet Temptation but am only managing to read a page a night as I keep falling asleep!

Sweet Temptation
Maddy is getting it from all sides, her bitchy boss at the radio station, humiliates her live on air, her glamor puss mum keeps dropping hints that she should lose weight (like signing her up for the gym). and her kids are embarrassed to be seen with her after the disasterous race at their sports day. Somethings got to change.............
Maddy reluctantly joins the local weightwatching group where she finds two unlikely allies. Jess, who is desperate to fit into a size 10 wedding dress for her big day, and Lauren, who, despite running a dating agency, has signed off romace forever. Or so she thinks.......
As they all count the calories, new friendships develop, and secrets are shared - but can they resist temptation?
A witty and moving novel about all the things that matter, love, friendship and chocolate.

Night night.

 Thursday 27th May 2010

7am. I actually got up at 6am. Also I woke at 3am and could not get back to sleep so read untill 5am and fell asleep for an hour. I am going to be so knackered later. Have made my lunch for work. Am having an original (red) day today (slimming world). I had wholemeal toast for breakfast (b choice) and am having boiled egg with bacon and tomatoes and sausage for lunch with a fruit yogurt and an apple. Not quite sure what having for tea though? See, I am not that organised!!!!!!!
The sun is shining. I do hope we get some decent weather next week when I am off work. Well, I had better go get ready for work.

I have booked for us all to go and stay one night in a travel lodge near York, so that we can go to Eden Camp which is about 22 miles away from the lodge. J said he will come too which is great, R will be pleased! We will set off early in the morning (say about 7am) and spend the day in MAlton and at Eden Camp and then go to the travel lodge for the night and return home sometime the next day. R has been wanting to go to Eden Camp for a few years now and I must say it does look v interesting.

We are also planning on going to Willowpool for the day which is a fantastic place, Neil and I have been, we love it there and I think the kids will find it very interesting too. And somewhere int the half term week off we will go to Turstaston/Thor Rock as R loves climbing up that and maybe a few other walks thrown in too.

I love us doing things as a family. These days J does not often come along with us so it is really nice when he does.

Last day in work tomorrow (for a week) YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I am going to a fashion show tomorrow night at a local high school, can't afford anything from there and will spend all my time wishing I was a size 10 - but hey whatever, I am sure it will be fun. Am going with a pile of people from work and the ticket sales go to charity.

 Saturday 29th May 2010

Long day! Went to view 2 nursing homes, one was really nice the other not so.

Here's a skirt I bought the other week, it has leaves on it (the pattern)
Here's an outfit I dug out of the wardrobe. I bought it about 4 years ago and have never worn it. It is a skirt and top. Of course I feel I look very lumpy and bumpy in it. It is very nice though. Maybe I will wear it one day when am feeling slimmer
I know I don't look enormous in it, but still I don't feel quite slim enough in it. It is very stretchy and a bit see-through. I could wear the skirt with a different top. It kinda looks like a dress doesn't it. See how white my legs are! Think I might get the fake tan out!!!!!

Went mad on the chocolate snack-a-jacks today, feel sick now, ate too many! Got some lovely fresh strawberies for tomorrows breakfast though. Am going out for Sunday dinner with some friends from work tomorrow and am looking forward to that.

 Sunday 30th May 2010

Had a nice Sunday dinner out with the girls from work and then we went shopping for a short while. It's lovely out. R and Neil are in the studio till 6pm, J and J have just gotten here. Nothing planned for the rest of the day, perhaps we can go for a walk ???? If Neil and R are too tired maybe we can go to Blackbuster and rent a family film?

My plan would be to lose weight for the summer (though since sumer is kinda here....) so I will just aim to lose weight! Yeah, can be slim for the Christmas Party can't I.
Am pleased I can get into size 16's and the odd 14 (though very rare). I have an attic full of 12's and want to be able to get into these. I have my favourite dress hanging up the in the wardrobe that I SO WANT to be able to wear. It is actually a 16 but it must be a flipping small one cos it won't go near me. Plus it's a Primark (cheap shop) one, it's a gorgeous dress though but they must skimp on their sizes.