Saturday 10th July 2010

Been v busy, so so busy and, so much to do. Am off work till next Wednesday.

Neil's mums funeral is on Tuesday. We miss Marie so much, it is odd without her. We have been doing all the funeral arrangements and other stuff, too much to mention.

I have been eating badly really, takeaways etc, can;t be bothered cooking at the moment. R went on an outward bound course with school, she enjoyed it a little bit though she is still getting crap from a lot of girls in her class. Hopefully she is moving to a different class in September when they go back after the summer holidays.
J is doing fine and is glad J (girlfriend) is back from her holiday in Corfu.

Going to try and rein in my eating as my blood sugars have been v crap. Tomorrow I will make an effort to get back to eating healthier. Still got a lot of stuff to do before Tuesday.

Rachel (my friend in Kentucky) I got your email some time ago and I am sorry, I did reply but it keeps getting returned to me, Neil said it must be something to do with your internet provider not liking who we are with, so he is trying to sort it out so we can keep in touch. I am looking forward to sending you an email as I feel I have so neglected emailing you for ages X X Cathy

Thank you to everyone who sent sympathy emails, it does make you feel better, it is lovely that people do care. Thank you Janey and Pam who is in Green Bay, thank you truly.

I have missed doing my site but have not wanted to do it but I shall be back letting you know how the dieting is going, as it is what my site is supposed to be about! Last week I did go and get weighed (was upset though) and pleased to have got Slimmer Of The Week as I had lost one and a half pounds. Must say I am not wanting to go on Monday morning but I certainly shall as I need the motivation and help to lose this weight and GET HEALTHIER, that is the most important thing for me.

Neil is going on a 12 week Weight Loss MAnagement course run by a local hospital, he will start that in a few weeks - we will help each other. He has about 56 lbs (and some) to lose.

 Sunday 11th July

How fast July is going by. It is not long now before R finishes school till September.
Did a few more things today for Neils dad.
It's now 6.30pm, I have been asleep for a few hours and woke up and it is SO hot and 'close' out. Wish we would have a big storm.
Not sure whether going to Slimming World tomorrow, I dunno, can't decide. I should go but there is so much to do tomorrow and I dunno. I could do with a week off work to do nothing. Am back in work on Wed.

It's 1am Monday morning (or late Sunday which ever way you look at it), I can't get to sleep. Neil is downstairs as he can't get to sleep. Think Buster is in his basket nodding off, he was wandering round the house earlier not knowing what to do with himself. He get's his 2nd jab on Wed and then 2 weeks later we can finally take him out for walks. I am looking forward to doing that.

Neil and I went for a walk earlier (before going to Neils dads), we walked around West Kirby lake, it was peaceful. Last time we went round the Lake was when we took Marie round in her wheelchair (Neils mum).

R is in school tomorrow, not sure what J is doing tomorrow. As I said I should be going to Slimming World but don't know if I can actually face going tomorrow? I've eaten rubbish all week and need to start looking after myself, Neil too. And I feel guilty cos the kids have been living on rubbish and stupid takeaways all week cos I either been too busy or too tired/lazy to do cooking.Am feeilng a bit down, ha what's new, kind of just down and so sad really and just , well Neil is so upset that his mum is gone and we keep thinking of her all on her own in the chapel of rest till Tuesday morning and - well, all of this really. And I am in a feeling sorry for me state cos Neil hasn't got a job yet, and we've got any money and I want something to look forward to and there isn't anything and I feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself.