Monday 15th Feb

Went to slimming world, gained one and a half pounds - not good so have got to have very good week this coming week

Stayed to the class and felt motivated to get off my arse and do something (ie stick to the plan) otherwise is a total waste of my time and money

Tuesday 16th Feb PANCAKE DAY!

Slept in mum n dads last night which was nice. R did not come with me she stayed home cos J took her shopping to Liverpool yesterday.

Some pics from today
My sisters friend, well her daughter had twins (who are now 9 weeks old) they weighed just under 5 lbs each when born - they weigh just over 7 lbs each now at 9 weeks - they are so tiny! Here;s J holding one of the twins, R looks amused!!!!
I said to J he can't have one for several years yet!!!!!! I think he found it very difficult to put the baby down, he was totally smitten with her, I think J would make the most wonderful dad, he is kind, caring, capable and sensible but hey - NOT YET!!!!!
Me and my youngest sister - who is going to Italy in 2 weeks time with her 2 girls (7 and 12) and hubby on a skiing holiday. She is 41 I think, can't remember! She works part time in a chemist
On the chair far left is the mum of the twins, she is 19. Her and J and her brother used to play together several years ago. My other sister Cheryl is sitting on the floor with one of the twins and her little daughter is standing by the chair.

Awwwwwww aren't they beautiful.

 Thursday 18th Feb

Went shopping in the morning to Elesmere Port, browsed around, didn't get anything cept the new and last (I think) Sookie Stackhouse True Blood Novel - I have read all the others. Also got the 1st Janey Evanovich nocel (I reall all the others but somehow had missed the first one). I did win one on Ebay too called Plum Spooky by her.

Meant to go for a walk (this is all I ever say!). Too cold. Tomorrow, tomorrow we will go for a walk. I did do 2 hours dancing on Wed night and am doing 2 hours dancing tomorrow night too.

I made a yummy Slimming World recipe of Cauliflower and Horseradish soup - Mmmmmmmmm............... Tried a bowl of it tonight and have amde a huge batch of it to freeze for work lunches,

Was very naughty tonight and had a mouthful of J's Baileys Cheesecake (wow nice). I am counting my syns and am having maximum of them each day so I need to cut this down a little. Am looking at the recipe books again which is good. I just need to have a little bit more self control where nibbles are concerned!

Am enjoying my week off fom work but it is going by too quickly. Wednesday night I went to the cinema with one of the nurses from work, we went to see Valentines Day which was a nice film. J had been to see The Lightening Thief with his girlfriend and her younger brother. When Neil picked them up from the cinema (at the same time dropping me off there) I got to meet J's mum, she seemed nice.

Other than that, been a pretty quiet week.

See how chunky I look - am not happy about this.
So, just in case you're wondering why I want to lose weight! Being under 5 ft tall and having a waist of about 42 inches is NOT GOOD!Ah well...........

Hahaha, that's me! When I lost my weight the first time with slimming world and I weighed about 115 lbs (I now weigh 148 lbs), well, I still thought I was fat and I was trying to lose even more weight and get under 112 lbs - or 8st). I was so intent on it, so desperate to get under 8 st and be 7 st something - silly eh. Am currently 10 st 8 lbs and aiming to get under 10 st (under 140 lbs) for starters, then under 9 and a half stone (under 126 lbs and finally under 9 st (under 118 lbs) - then I will be happier with my weight!!!!!! PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it's no good anyone saying I look ok as I am cos that DOESN'T MATTER to me - I don't like being the weight I am AT ALL. OOOps better go to bed as is almost midnight!

  Saturday 20th Feb 2010

This is the dance we learnt Wed night and we did it again last night , easy peasey dance - very catchy tune! Like this dance.

All day, went browsing round the charity shops for bargains, didn't get any just a few books.

Managed to almost totally blitz the bedroom - oh the dust, how awful, so many dustballs. I want one of those calm and relaxing bedrooms, clean, minimilist and tranquil - very difficult to achieve in a tiny room with 2 wardrobes (small), king bed (lumpy), drawers (stuffed) and desk in corner (dusty, cluttered) oh and 2 small bedside tables (small with lamps on).

Had a good clear out of clothes that I keep hanging on to in the hope they will
1. One day fit me
2. Come back into fashion
3 Grow on me (this category includes items I have bought, never worn that were SUCH a bargain in the sale that I could not leave them there)

I am still promising myself that when WHEN I lose this weight I will banish forever all things black and leggings (I totally hate leggings - but wear them every day now cos is all that will fit me unfortunately). I did buy a short denim skirt the other day
The skirts ok I guess
Now what on earth possessed me to buy this ghastly top??? It was in the sale of course. It looked kinda trendy, youngish, flirty on the rail. It is see through, long on me (Hmmmm...... could be a short dress with some nice tights????
It's got to be the most hideous thing I have ever bought and I will never ever wear it even if I was a size 6. I mean look at it - OMG............!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just found this pic of Judith and I in 2001 Not sure where it was taken. Judith is who I go to Slimming World with, we met when J was about 18 months old, round about 1993 or thereabouts.