Monday 25th January 2010

I still find it weird writing 2010. Well I hoped on my scaes this morning and appear to have gained ermmmm.........I would say about 5 lbs since I loast went on mine.....OMG!

Will have to stop this snacking and 'emotional' eating that I seem to do a lot of. So.....this morning Neil and I both got weighed and this is the start of us losing weight - hones1, really it is.

On my scales

Neil - 19 st 11 lbs (277 lbs)
Cathy - 10 st 7.5 lbs (147.5 lbs)

Yes I know I get weighed on the same day at Slimming World but Neil and I are going to weigh on our scales every Monday morning first thing.

Am not terribly looking forward to getting weighed at SW this morning but I SO SO need the help and motivation and encouragement.
Last night I made a yummy parsnip and apple soup for later and I am 100% ready to give it a better shot - this losing weight business!!!!!!! I have taken all the crap off the treadmill and later am going to do a minimum of half an hour. Last night I did listen to the Paul McKenna 'I can Make You Thin' hypnosis cd on my ipod but I feel asleep half way through it unfortunately.

Well I am off to Slimming World in about 20 minutes (Judith usually picks me up in her car to go there). I will not cry at the scales.........I will hold my breathe and hope that I have not gained too much!

Well...........I gained 2 lbs which is OK.......I don't want to be going round in circles gaining and losing the same few lbs, so this week is going to be a good week. STARTING NOW!

 Tuesday 26th January 2010

Have been fairly good on diet plan today - I said 'fairly'!

Breakfast I had - Fruit and muller yogurt (v v good)
Lunch I had - Pasta and some fruit (blueberries and an apple) (v v v good)
Anoon I had to have 2 biscuits cos I was hypo - 2 custard creams which were 6 syns
Tea I had - Stir fry veg (cauliflower, broccoli, onion, carrot and sweetcorn) v v yummy! And then I had a muller yogurt with more fruit
Evening I had - 3 Slimming World scones that I made at 9 syns in all. Thus making my days syns allownence 15 (which is the total you are allowed).

Planning on being healthier, better tomorrow. Did not do any exercise today as such unless you count walking about in work from 8.30am till 5pm? But that is what I do in work all the time so NO it does not count as such. Too tired to go on the treadmill tonight, will go on it tomorrow? Hopefully.

Got a flippin great big spot (zit) on my chin. Arghghgh I hate spots. Mine always take forever to go. Am lucky in that I only ever get one or 2 at a time but still, am too old for zits surely??????????

Stupid spot concealer actually makes the spots stand out more. Tried to put foundation on today but no matter how I apply it (and which one I apply, cos I have a few and some more expensive ones) - well, it always looks caked on. I don't think my skin is young and fresh looking anymore cos it's like, 46 years old !!!!!!!!

 Wed 27th January 2010

Am feeling more motivated to eat better, so what have I eaten today?
Well.........
Breakfast - MUller yogurt with blueberries
Lunch - Bacon, turkey and cranberry sandwich with handful crisps and salad and a latte (skim milk)
Tea - Jacket potato with ww cream cheese and a muller yogurt with yep , more blueberries

So.......ok on the food there, maybe could have done without the crisps, but hey, there weren't many of them

Me in Liverpool on Saturday
The museum in Liverpool where R went to take part in the Young Archaeology Club
Group of friends from work who I went out for a meal with the other week.
The birthday girl (in blue), it was her 40th
Group pic at a pub we went to after the birthday meal
It was a nice night out
I am going for a night out to an Italian restuarant next week as it is one of the girls (not pictured above) 30th birthdays next week, so 11 of us are going for a meal, which will be nice. I have been to the Italian with people from work before. Here is a pic of where we will be going
The food there is really nice. I went about 1 and a half years ago.

 Thursday 28th January 2010

Ok day. I did 20 minutes on the wii in the evening (free step), ok better than nothing. Other than that - same old thing - work all day.

 Saturday 30th January 2010

Cold out and there is still some snow in the garden. Not sure what we are doing today? Will see if I can get the kids moving and we can all go out for a walk. It is tempting to stay in the house and do nothing much in particular.

YEAH my Edward Cullen (ie Robert P) T-shirt came this morning!!!!!!!!! Aren't I sad!!!!!!!!! I also want one in black!
A little bit of snow in the garden this morning, as you can see the trampoline is white.

 Sunday 31st January 2010

Slightly lazy day. I did do some house cleaning, some, a little bit. Watched a film in the afternoon with R - too cold to go out (ok I was too lazy)
R did 20 minutes on the treadmill in the evening. She got very upset tonight saying that no one in her class likes her. She said she thought they did not like her cos she does not like the things that they like. She just wants everyone to like her, she is a lovely lovely little girl and I HATE seeing her upset. She said she feels lonely in school. I said can she talk to someone and tell them (like a teacher), I wish she would. I do tell her to ask girls round here but she asks and they never say yes, as far as I know? Then she got very upset cos she went on the wii fit and weighed herself and well, she weighs more than me, but as I said she is much taller than me and her weight is evenly distributed so she looks fine. I said she is a growing girl and she should not take any notice of the scales at all. I have tried not to mention weight much around the house (mine or Neils). I want us all to have fun together as a family and relax and be as healthy as we can be. I worry that time flys by and we are all stressed in our own little ways with our own worries and anxieties. I don't want us to be like this. I want us to enjoy life and chill out and have fun and be happier. It's got to stem from Neil and I. Unfortunately Neil is quite down at the moment, due in some part to not having a job and worrying about money etc. We both moan like heck to each other about being overweight, me to him, him to me. We moan about the state of the house about how we never get things done and so on and so on. So first things first, Neil and I have got to sort ourselves out and hopefully the kids will be happier as a result. Well, I could write pages and pages and go on and on - but here is not the place.